Nov 11th, 2006, 02:25 | #1 |
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【原创】他真的就这么走了吗?
他真的就这么走了吗? --谨以此文怀念我那位刚刚逝去的Leader 前天,当别人告诉我们,我们部门的Leader,也就是我们的老板,在这个星期一的晚上因心脏病突然发作而Pass Away时, 我真的是非常震惊(Shocking)。当时我一下子就懵了,什么话也不会说,只是一个劲地重复“I can’t believe……”。可残酷的事实告诉我,这是真的。就在星期一的下午,我还和他一起讨论着我们的项目,还在下班碰见时微笑着打招呼,互道晚安。没想到这一分手竟成永别,他已经永远地离开了我们。 我的已故上司,是一位已经64岁饱经沧桑的加国老人。个子不高,脑门已经略微谢顶,说话声音也不大。可在我眼里,他是那么睿智和令人肃然起敬。而且,他的慈祥、宽容使我经常在工作时回想起我三年前刚刚去世的父亲。说心里话,有时在心底里真的把他当成父亲一样来尊待。尤其要让我铭记终身的是,如果不是他给我这个机会,我可能至今还在某个洗衣厂里日夜辛苦,挥汗如雨地搬运着那一堆堆数不完的脏衣服。我真的要万分感谢他。我不敢说自己是匹千里马,可如果没有他这个伯乐,那我很可能终身只能做一匹守在栏圈里的驽马。所以,当我做了现在这份专业工作,尽管不时有中介打电话来说有更好更高的职位需要人,我都一概拒之门外,理由不是别的,就是因为我有一位好领导。事实上,我的薪酬是有点偏低的,可我喜欢这里的宽松环境,以及人与人之间的平等与友好相处。当然,还有一个我十分羞于说出口的原因,就是我的英语口语实在太差。尽管我的老板留下了我,可每当我想向他用英语表达自己的想法时,总觉得词不达意,要不干脆都说不出口。他也一再表示我们之间最大的问题就是交流,很多时候他都不能理解我在说什么。可这并不影响我们的感情和工作与日俱进。我真的非常感谢他。是他当初留下了我,给了我那么多机会,让我充分发挥自己了的长处,还非常豁达大度地忍受了我那十分蹩脚的Chinese English。所以,虽然有时候因工作太忙而非常疲劳,可我心底里是快乐的,因为在这里我才真正找到了自己的价值。可是,现在他就这么匆匆走了,留下了一大堆烂摊子,让我们大家都无所适从。我的心底更是一片迷茫。我不知道未来会是什么样,新的头能否像他一样容忍我用他们听不懂的英语去解释我的工作与想法,诉说工作中的难点?是否会像他那样富有经验地去应对工作中的各种困难,指导我们走出一个个困境呢? 说实话,在我们部门仅有的5个人里,就属我和他相处的时间最长。虽然他平时不苟言笑,可我从他偶尔开的玩笑当中还是感觉得出他是喜欢我的。可是,这一切都成了过去,我再也没有机会和他开玩笑,或者当面询问他对我的真实感受了。此时此刻,他的去世又一次让我感受到父亲多年以前离去的痛苦。几天下来,每当想起和他在一起相处的日子,我总是时不时会忍不住流下眼泪来。虽然我知道作为一个男人,轻易掉眼泪会被别人嗤笑的。可是,我不在乎。谁让他是我的恩师呢?我自己又怎能轻易忘记我们在一起共事的日子,还有他那栩栩如生的音容笑貌?人都是有感情的,可我现在感觉是自己真的很脆弱,也更感觉人生的无奈。假如冥冥之中真的有命运的安排,那为何带给我的竟突然是一个如此伤感的结局? 今天,当我们公司老总给我们发来邮件,告诉我们他的葬礼将在下个星期二,2006年11月14日在White Rock举行时,我毫不犹豫地立刻给老总回了E-mail,虽然我知道从温哥华到那里可不是一般的远。我是这样告诉他的,“This is my last chance to see him, I am sure I must be there. I really miss him whenever.”还没打完这句话,泪水就又一次不由自主地盈满了我的眼眶…… 愿上帝与他同在,阿门…… 后记:当我听到这位尊敬的上司离我们而去的消息,我真的非常难过,好几次都忍不住流下了眼泪,为他,也为我自己。所以,我总想为他做些什么,写些什么。可当我想完全用英语表达时,我发现这远远超出了我力所能及的范围。有那么多英文词汇我还不知道,更别提要准确客观地反映我的真实感情了。于是最终我还是决定用自己的母语,中文,来表达我对他离去的伤感和怀念。虽然我知道他并不懂Chinese,但是我想他如果地下有知,他还是能感受到我这个普通中国人对他的感恩和怀念。唉,人生无常,但愿天下人都珍惜自己的生命与健康,更希望种种的烦恼与不幸都远离我们。 |
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Nov 16th, 2006, 03:29 | 只看该作者 #9 |
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My composition
Yesterday we had a writing quiz. My teacher gave us three choices about the topic. I didn’t hesitate to choose this one and was finished with one hour. The comment from my teacher is “A very Powerful Story”. Thanking for my teacher, he helped me fix many mistakes. However, I have to say this is not only a story; also everything is true, including my feeling and thought. By the way, please don’t laugh at my English because I’m still studying English at VCC. A Big Surprise Last Wednesday, when someone told me that my supervisor, the leader of our department, had passed away that Monday when he was sleeping at night, I was immediately shocked. At that moment, I couldn’t say anything except to repeat one sentence, “I can’t believe it.” My supervisor, whom I usually called “my boss”, was just 64 years old this October. He was not only a knowledgeable and respectable engineer, but also a wise and kind man. When he interviewed me, he asked me a lot of professional questions, and at last decided to give the offer even though he felt my oral English was not good. He told me not to worry about my English because he would help me if I had any difficulties. I really appreciated him giving me this opportunity and worked very hard. According to my job performance, I proved that it was a correct choice to hire me, and he started to like me step by step. I also respected him as my dead father. Since this February, we had worked together for more than nine months. Recently, I often heard him cough when he was at the office. Sometimes, I thought he should see the doctor, or he had to stop working and have a rest for a period. However, I didn’t tell him my thought because I considered that my English speaking was still poor and believed there would be lots of time to discuss with him later. Unfortunately, I will never have the chance to tell him again. It’s really a big surprise to hear his death because we had discussed our project face to face that afternoon, and said “good night” when we met at the door after work. Today, we went to his funeral ceremony, and commemorated him. At last, I couldn’t help crying again because I still can’t believe he has left us forever. |
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Nov 26th, 2006, 13:51 | 只看该作者 #16 | |
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顶下LZ。 |
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